Rose Petals on the Shore

Yesterday I found myself feeling more than a little sorrowful that was peppered with a heavy handed double dash of overwhelmed. I was juggling more balls than usual even for me – and that’s saying a lot. Moving is huge. Add to that, I am merging two families, packing up and prepping a new home for Mr T, Sam and me. Mr T also has two older girls who are away at school and  at work. It’s a lot. Oh, and I’m working full time. Oh, and Mr T has a small sweet yappy little Chihuahua mix suffering from an acute case of separation anxiety. I am having ‘big’ feelings!!  – a phrase I would offer offer up to my pre-verbal daughter when on the verge of a meltdown.

“Mommy can see you’re having BIG feelings.”

Yesterday morning on my way out the door to take Sam to school after the hustle of

  1. Making breakfast
  2. Making lunch
  3. Dressing myself
  4. Redressing her from gym clothes to formal dress
  5. Letting out the dogs (plural)
  6. Then feeding the poor dogs (plural)

Mr T wondered upstairs and casually, accusingly yawned, “Oh, where’s the coffee? Are we out of coffee?” “Babe….are we out of coffee???”  I glared at him as I snatched my keys, her lunch box, my tea, her sweater and my hair brush. Thank God I did not say a word… until later.

rosesAfter dropoff, I took myself for a beach meditation. I needed it and it worked.   Calmed and breathing again, I went for a short walk down the beach, in search of…. I don’t know… lovely I guess. Looking down, there it was. Washed up on the beach a mile or so long, were blood red rose petals all along the shoreline. Thousands of red rose petals washed ashore beneath my feet.

Looking up the symbolic meaning of red roses, this was the first definition I found.

“Red roses are given to those who you want to show love and passion, people who you have great respect for, and those who have shown great courage. The quantity can also have a special meaning. A single red rose shows love, a dozen shows gratitude, twenty-five shows congratulations and fifty show unconditional love.”

Thank you God.

Lovely Interruptions

  1. Absolutely beautiful symbolism. I really look up to you Ms Toussaint! I’m a 26 year old mother of 3 and wife. Your demeanor, courage, womaness, your ability to find splice when things start to get overwhelming is what I want to pursue for myself. I work, going back to school, taking care of a disabled 2 year old and 2 more kids ages 4 and 3. I try my best to find my sense of lovely everyday. Maybe one day I can find it without interruption haha.

    Love always
    Your BIGGEST fan Alexis

  2. Hello lorraine. Thank You! I just saw you on TV and you talk about your blog. I am 65 and going through some things. I use to walk on the beach when I was home but I moved to a state where the beach is far away. However reading you blog was my walk on the beach it reminded me that I have red roses in my life i just have to take time to see them. Thank you

  3. Just saw you on Hollywood Live daytime entertainment show! Loved you years ago on the NBC show with Annie*<3 as well as now, with Morris <3

  4. I absolutely love this!This definately is a sign!You inspire me everyday!You make me a stronger woman and you give such great advice with family matters!God bless you and may those roses of love, carry you through the years to come, with love and success!

  5. You gotta stop and think how cool (or lovely) that you path for that very moment makes you appreciate those red roses at your feet! “Ain’t God good.” Walking in red rose favor! Nice book title huh?… You heard it from me first. #liveinspired

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